am i wasting my life sitting infront of a computer at a desk in an office housed by a company i work for? how much longer will i last sitting behind a desk for all eternity. how will the battle between two conflicting streams of thought “i can’t keep doing this” and “i should shut up and do it” end? its a job, work, and it pays the bills. meets my many lavish needs. why then do i feel so wasteful.