I saw you today…

I saw you today
I think you saw me too

I remembered you today
Did you remember me too?

I held you again
In the palm of my memory
I saw you again
In my arms temporarily

I saw you today
And it wasn’t enough
I held you again
But my nerves gave up

I saw you today
And I turned quickly away
Before the sunshine of our past
Met the light of today

Trying…

Feedback required – i think this leads into a conclusion too fast. i’d like to build on the feeling from the second verse before killing the poem. Thoughts?

conceal my smile
so you wont know
kill my high
in case it shows

not telling my friends
coz
they’d want to know,

such a sinister plot
my soul wants to sow

just to make it last
make it grow
i dont want it released
in case it blows

this can’t be revealed
that’s how it ends
you know?

Updated after consultationwith a friend (who is also a budding writer) 17/11/11

conceal my smile
so you wont know

kill my high
in case it shows

not telling my friends
coz
they’d want to know

such a sinister plot
my soul wants to sow

just to make it last
make it grow

i dont want it released
in case it blows

can my heart handle this
does she know how it goes?
when you steal a smile
and the feeling grows

till it fills up wide
coz it fills up slow

can you pick the signs
can you tell
do you know?

there’s a spring in my step
a new bounce in my flow

i’m killin this prose
coz my heart wants to show

all the ways i’m affected
i’m eager
you know?

but it can’t be revealed
that’ll end this
no!

not it can’t be shown
that’s how it ends
you know.

-

how are you supposed to love
when it hurts so much
is love supposed to mend
or is it supposed to cut?

how can the two coexist
inside one heart
is a heart made of steel
or is it made of glass?

if my love knows no bounds
does my heart know its part?

it expands, fills up
when it comes to the part
where a flicker of your praise
shines a light in my heart

it contracts, feels numb
when your words tear it apart

how do i love
when hurt’s the hardest part?

…

its when you realise that words aren’t enough

emotion isn’t easily described

strength isn’t always felt

love can’t always be conveyed through actions

i can only pray that my love emanates everything i can’t do for you.

through osmosis explain what i feel for you

there is so much to say and then there’s nothing

i hope you can forgive and over look my inabilities

for every tiny little molecule that betrays whats in your heart

i love you with all of my heart

Maryam’s Keenly Observed Facts of Life (Part 91)

Maybe the reason more people are alone today is because we’re losing the ability to put up with other people?